I've had enough! I'm tired of living only in partial truth to the world. I'm so afraid to talk about my sin that I hide it away, my filthy secret. But it's eating me up inside and I have to talk about it or it will destroy me. I must confess my sin, as it says in James, "So confess your sins to one another and pray for one another so that you may be healed. The prayer of a righteous person has great effectiveness."(James 5:16, NET). I have been living a life with a mind full of lust and even a lust for lust. It has manifested in many ways, but God is not done with me yet, and is working to guide me through true repentance. This is one of the steps. God gave me three songs today from Brian "Head" Welch, and I will give them to you in the order in which God gave them to me:
Adonai:
Understand It's for the sake Of every man That I must take This whole world back To make things right I will attack I came to fight
I will rise a generation up to be my soldiers I will tie my heart to yours put my head on your shoulders Make your escape from life with Adonai Everything in life depends on Adonai
Natural disasters will keep coming but don't worry My people don't live in fear of death that's how you should be Make your escape from life with Adonai Everything in life depends on Adonai
Lift all your worries up to Adonai You will all stop hurting come to Adonai Leave me alone now
I'm not from here My home's in Heaven Leave me alone Rise Rise up Adonai
Let your worries rest on Adonai Life is just a test from Adonai Make your escape from life with Adonai Everything in life depends on Adonai Lift all your worries up to Adonai
You will all stop hurting come to Adonai
Save Me From Myself:
My hell Another day in life Which way will I go? Will I pick suicide? How do I say no? The demons are calling me "Just one more line" Voices echoing in my head These thoughts aren't mine Chop it Snort it The kid? Ignore it Life sucks I'm over it
Save me from myself Can't quit I tried it Your love? Denied it Can't fake it I hate it Please help me God Save me from myself I'm beggin you God Save me from my hell
Chillin in my own gutter I've sunk so low I want to be a good father, but Here the voices go
Chop it Snort it The kid? Ignore it Life sucks I'm over it
Wake up Wasted Get up Wasted Go out Wasted Come home So Wasted Play shows Wasted
Pimp hoes Wasted Life blows I'm Wasted No more living Wasted!
Drug use I kicked it Abuse I kicked it I'm through I kicked it I won't kill myself Depression I kicked it Suicide I kicked it Telling lies I kicked it I won't kill myself
Father! Thank You! Father! I live for You now! Oh my God I live For You now
L.O.V.E.:
I gave you everything All the pain life brings Just to get you to come back to Me I want to give you light I don't want to ever fight Stop resisting and come home to Me
You're so afraid of love There's not much time
All the pain inside just makes you want to die
Love Me Don't hate Me You're angry It's OK Trust Me Come this way Live in Eternity
I'm the real drug to take To numb your heartache
Stop your running and come back to Me
I've had it up to here I cried way too many tears You'll keep suffering til you come to me
Outside you act so tough But inside you cry All the pain inside just makes you want to die
Love Me Don't hate Me You're angry It's OK Trust Me Come this way Live in Eternity
Your soul is Mine Your soul is Mine I don't want to fight Your soul is Mine Don't be unkind
Your soul is Mine Your soul is Mine
I don't lie I swear you'll never die Stay alive When I restore all mankind
Love Me Don't hate Me You're angry It's OK Trust Me Come this way Live in Eternity Come see
You'll soon be Not guilty
And set free
